Of standing and sharing - of declaring intentions, commitments, acheivements, imagination and hope. Excited joy meeting holy dread. Struggling to learn this new movement in unfamiliar clothing: checking and rechecking labels, just to be sure it really is meant for you;"will I grow, up into this?" asks a heart and head captured in this moment of drooping sleeves, hems past knees, tightness at neck and new colour. Knees shake, cheeks blush - cold and hot, sweat. Mind racing, and wondering if there will words or voice - and then the mind blanks as if thought had never dwelt there.
Open eyes, heart, ears, will and faith to God. And you step, step, step...
Do not be alarmed if you find yourself wondering who and where you are; wondering how the mantle fits; wondering why this path and when is the right time to move? Ask and He.
it is okay if you get tossed in the tumult - for He calms torrents.
it is okay if you don't have the strength to move - for He is the breath teaching lungs to expand.
it is okay if you can speak only silence - for He is Truth and Word.
it is okay if you are vulnerable and weak - for He clothes the naked, heals the broken and gathers children - nestling them beneath His wings: comfort and protection.
it is okay if you simply are - for you are fearfully and wonderfully made; He has redeemed you from all Hell's grasp and He has called you His - you are His; as you are, as you will be.
it is okay.
Not polar, discrete, or one way or another - just a simple, okay.
Peace, filled of gentle and might, finds us - finds me there;
in the flux of wait and hope and blossoms of fruit trees.
Today, I am thankful for:
- blushing side glances of small girls.
- flushed faces of intention.
- quiet, courageous eyes, looking out and taking in.
- sleep, in quiet corners of an old house.
- a few, brief, rich words with a dear dear friend.